(Eek! Second attempt at posting this journal: I accidentally posted the silly thing half-written... how embarrassing. )

I am so sorry, guys. What kind of shitty excuse for a friend disappears off the face of the planet for a few months, makes a big song and dance (complete with top hats, tap-dance numbers and a musical encore) about coming back, and then disappears again? Me, apparently. Feel free to hurl abuse, flames, large blunt objects, etc.

*ducks to avoid wave of flying flaming objects and insults*... So yeah. If y'all - the SheCats especially - are totally pissed off at me, I understand. (I won't be entirely surprised if nobody replies to this journal, either... anyone seeing it turn up in their inbox will go "Harmonic-who?", and delete it. )

Anyway. This will probably come across as an attempt to justify why I haven't been around lately; it's not meant to be, but I figure I owe my watchers/friends/general stalkery types some form of explanation.

I've just recently started at a new job; it's the first full-time job I've ever had, and with my lack of experience and skills and general everything I'm amazed that I managed to get past even the first interview. The fact that I got kicked out of high school probably didn't help much.

The three (four?) months in between getting expelled and getting a job were hell. Deep-fried, extra-crispy Hell on a Stick with sauce and a side order of angstcakes. I laugh now, but daaaaaamn... my mum and me were screaming at each other like a pair of PMS'ing banshees every other day. (Well, really she did most of the screaming and I stuck to the classic Sullen Teenage Glare technique, save for one memorable occasion where we took turns yelling, glaring, or both at each other from across the dinner table. Boy, do I feel sorry for the neighbours. And for my mum's partner. Poor guy had to live with this just about every freakin' night.) And I'd been depressed for a long time by then, even without the getting expelled and the being an unemployed bum and the huge howling banshee-fights.

It was not pretty. It would likely have gotten even less appealing, had I not buggered off to my auntie's house for a couple of weeks. Things picked up after then - I had a couple of very promising job interviews, and me and Mum weren't wanting to kill each other any more (at least, not any more than usual ). Which is always a plus. And a little while after this I got three job offers within two days (!!!), agonized about which one to accept for a while, and ended up taking the one with better pay and more responsibility.

I'm still not sure I made the right decision, now that I'm two and a half weeks into my new job. I wake up every morning expecting to be fired. No joke. (Though this is probably just due to me being a paranoid bundle o' nerves.) And because I have a job now doesn't mean I have my shit together; it just means my shit is slightly less disorganized than it was when I was an unemployed school drop-out. I'm trying to balance work and family and my art and what passes for my social life, and I honestly don't know how the hell people do it. Most days when I get home all I want to do is sleep. Or mindlessly surf the 'net for Harry Potter fanfiction. (Now if I could do both at once? That would just rock.)

Oh blimey! The paragraphs are getting larger... I'd better bring this journal entry to a close before they multiply and, like, eat the Internet or something. But anyway. That's my little emo moment out of the way. And to everyone who's stuck with me this far - what, are you crazy? *cough* I mean... thanks a gazillion. You're crazy, but thanksies anyway. Love you all. And will draw you all lots and lots of pretty pictures once I get my Art Mojo back (it's deserted me at the mo, sadly...).

Will try to suck less at posting and commenting and life 'n stuff.
~Harmonic

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NEXT KIRIBAN: 2000 Pageviews - note me a screenshot or something and I will seriously draw you ANYTHING. (I can't promise I'll draw it particularly well, but...)

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Stole this meme from a friend on LiveJournal - oh, yeah, by the way, I have a LiveJournal now! Anyone else here who does, wanna be friends?

*clears throat* Aaaaaany-way. On with the quiz.

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1.) do a road trip across the planet in a 1960's style Hippie Bus. Which is also a bookmobile.
2.) own a bookstore. (And scare off all the customers by being drunk and generally surly all the time. XD)
3.) learn to curse in at least five different languages. Fluently.

Three Names You Go By:
1.) Dizzy (LJ)
2.) Harmonic, Harms (DeviantART)
3.) Sian (RL)

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1.) harmonic-discordia
2.) dizzyharmonic (Anyone sensing a theme here?)
3.) BlackdoveJanuary

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1.) My eyes
2.) My calves
3.) um... my hair? (when it behaves. Which it usually doesn't.)

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1.) Irish
2.) Maori
3.) Spanish

Three Things That Scare You:
1.) writing. Or rather, the thought that I'll never be any good at it.
2.) the thought that people can hear every single embarrassing thought I have, and just aren't telling me about it because they're saving it all up for blackmail material later on.
3.) L from Death Note. Damn, he's creepy. I think it's the toes.

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1.) music
2.) drawing
3.) hot showers

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.) light turquoise, paisley tank top
2.) dark blue lace shirt with cut-off sleeves
3.) jeans.

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1.) The Decemberists
2.) Tori Amos
3.) Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

Three Of Your Favorite Songs (at the moment anyway):
1.) Fool's Garden - Lemon Tree
2.) The Decemberists - The Perfect Crime #2
3.) Arlo Guthrie - Alice's Restaurant Massacree

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1.) humour
2.) fun conversations
3.) to be able to be myself and not have to make this huge effort to impress someone. 'Coz I'm lazy like that.

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1.) I can kill you with my brain!
2.) I'm a genetic carrier for colourblindness
3.) 42.

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1.) nice smile
2.) nice eyes
3.) long, scruffy rock star hair

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1.) Drawing
2.) Reading
3.) General fangirling

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1.) drink tea. *goes to the kitchen to make a cuppa*
2.) stay up all night squealing with people on LiveJournal over the awesomeness of OMG CANON GAY DUMBLEDORE. But I can't, 'coz I have work tomorrow. Boo.
3.) sleep.

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1.) starving artist/novelist
2.) space pirate
3.) J.K. ROWLING. oh, wait, what? That one's taken? I DON'T CARE.

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:

1.) various Greek islands
2.) London
3.) Canada.

Three Pet's Names You Like:
1.) Hedwig *sniffle...*
2.) Isis
3.) Macavity the Mystery Cat

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1.) I like pretty, brightly-coloured stuff with flowers on it. *cringes*
2.) I am forever saying bad stuff about myself, especially my looks. And I hate that I do it, too - I don't know why I do, I guess I just picked it up as a kid because I was aware it was something that women did. Guys don't bother with that shit.
3.) I have absolutely no sense of direction.

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1.) I like violent video games.
2.) I can belch the alphabet. And frequently do.
3.) I don't like telling people about my problems, or appearing weak.

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Stole this quiz from ~KupoJaycie.

HAVE YOU EVER...

1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [ ]
6. Had sex. [ ]
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. [ ]
10. Done drugs. [ ]

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

1. Taken painkillers. [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. [ ]
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [x]
5. Been to rehab. [ ]
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [ ]
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. [ ]
10. Seen someone die. [ ]

TOTAL SO FAR: 11

1. Missed curfew. [x]
2. Stayed out all night. [x]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. [x]
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [ ]
7. Received a ticket. [ ]
8. Been in an accident. [ ]
9. Wished someone to die. [x]
10. Been to a bar. [x]

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

1. Been to a wild party. [ ]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. [ ]
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [x]
4. Had a spring break in Florida. [ ]
5. Sniffed anything. [ ]
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. [x]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [ ]
9. Listened to rap. [x] (Not by my own choice, believe me! )
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. [ ]

TOTAL SO FAR: 22

1. Dressed Gothic. [ ]
2. Dressed prep.[x]
3. Dressed punk. [x]
4. Dressed grunge. [x]
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [ ]
7. Blacked out. [ ]
8. Fainted. [ ]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [x]

TOTAL SO FAR: 27

1. Snuck into someone else's room. [x]
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [ ]
4. Dry-humped someone. [x]
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car. [ ]
8. Broken a mirror. [x]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [ ]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. [ ]

TOTAL SO FAR: 33

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. [ ]
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [x]
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [x]
5. Had surgery. [x]
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. [x] (As part of a school trip. Honestly! )
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. [x] (We generally don't tip in NZ.)
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]

TOTAL SO FAR: 42

1. Owned/rented an apartment. [ ]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. [ ]
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [x] (Sort of.)
4. Got in trouble with the police. [x]
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [ ]
7. Kissed a stranger. [ ]
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [ ]
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]

TOTAL SO FAR: 47

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. [ ]
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [x]
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. [ ]
8. Prank-called someone. [ ]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [ ]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]

TOTAL SO FAR: 53

-If You Have Less Than 10..write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10..write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.]

OMG'Z! I'm a horrible person! (Why does that seem kinda... cool? )

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NEXT KIRIBAN: 2000 Pageviews!

Really. No false alarm this time, guys... the Red Lioness is back for good! I probably won't be online as often as I was in ye goode olde days, as I'm a working girl now and have Responsibilities with a capital R to uphold. Such as, like, work. Le sigh.

But I'm back now! Yay! And as a gift to all my watchers... well, I couldn't bring y'all back souvenirs from the Land of the Dead, so I settled for flooding your inboxes with a tidal wave of Harmonic-scribblings. Mwahahaha!

Glad to be back!
~Harmonic

EDIT: Oh, what the hell?!?! DA has gone all puritanical while I was away and won't let me look at anything with the "Mature Content" filter! Fascists! And I won't be 18 for another 2 months...

Not that I was, uh, trying to look at anything dodgy. 'Course not. Would I do such a thing?

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Eep! I guess this is what I get for not checking my e-mail inbox in, like, forever... 'Cos I just got hit by a pile of letters saying "Congratulations! You've been nominated in the 2007 Stargate Fan Awards!" *is dazed*

Methinks I missed the deadline to actually enter my pics in the SFA... *sigh*. But, a million thanks and 's to whoever nominated them! 'Tis an honour.

*strolls off into the sunset, feeling the Stargate fandom love...*